Ease my pain, would you?

God, from this moment. I will only love you and only you.

 I'm a big believer in love with friendship and how could I ever be in love if friendship has already ruined. 

I shall free my soul and leave it to rest.

 I know this is for the best.

I'm outta here and definitely moving on. I'm smiling already :) 

Thats typical.
bye.

Flashback

Went to SK. Seri Negeri today and had a sudden flashback about the past. I spent my entire primary life there in that school and it makes me wanna tell you about my past. Its a sad and happy moment that I still remember it till now.

"Went walking down a hallway when it used to be big but now it looked so small, I can touch the ceiling. haha "

I started dancing for my school since I was 11 years old. That was the year the Kelab Kebudayaan was established so automatically making me and my friends the first ever batch of dancers and my mom was the trainer and still is up until now. I went performing for a lot of occasion. Did a performance for the Underwater World once and a big dewan like the Dewan Lima. I made lots of wonderful friends. Some of them even move to another places and I still don't see them yet. I miss them <3

Unfortunately, one of my dancing friend died on an accident. She one of my bestfriend. May she rest in peace. Amin.

Back to the point, I was very active in Pakaian Beragam back then in primary school when there was Hari Kantin and let me tell you. I rocked it. My mom used to dress me into Cik Siti Wan Kembang and one time, a ghost. haha. There still a guy from my school keep calling me Cik Siti Wan Kembang for some reason.

And also, Coral Speaking. The best part of it is just to be one of them. in Standard 4, I represented Langkawi in State Level. Unfortunately, we didn't win but the experience is worth it. in Standard 6, I was the conductor. yes. THE conductor. The one with the hand gesture. I remember when we were in the competition. I made a mistake by going down the thing *the place where the conductor stand* first before asking them to get out. haha. We won 2nd place then all the kids were pointing at me. like seriously guys? then the teacher came and told us the reason we didn't win is because they didn't smile. Haaa. not my fault. boo:p

Athletics. I admit I'm not the athletic kind of girls. I had a experience where I represent the red team (Mat Kilau) for 4x200. hahaha. as they passed the baton to me, we were on the third place at that time. As I was running, the girl who were extremely fast cut me in front then we got fourth place so no medal for us. Not my fault either, that girl was fast! haha. Then I stick with hurdles and long jump and high jump because I'm quite a jumper that time. no running. haha.

Girl Scout. well not actually girl scout. I was a PBSM that time. I remember one time where we had a camping at the school's field. It was fun. I remember on the Malam Kebudayaan. We did a impromptu performance where we acted a comedy and it was actually pretty funny and we won. We all just went to the stage with our own head making lame jokes which actually funny. It was a shocker but we won :D happy.

Library's prefect. Hell yeah. Library is the place we hang. Not like we are a nerd or something but we definitely went there when there are no teacher in class and recess. We looked into books and everything involved book stuff thing. and yes, its the place I go to for a date. Lame! =__='

I did had a lot of fun in primary school. I still remember the day we gonna took UPSR. I still remember the secret door in my classroom where we used to hide in it. I remember the scary toilet and when we change to our PJ clothes in there. I remember that rombongan to KL. I remember after UPSR activities where we played Futsal. I remember we were making Guinness Malaysian Book of Record for making lots of Wau Bulan and mine got stolen so I had to make another one. Thats a bummer. I remember someone gave me a letter saying I like you and asking me to meet at one place and I was so scared I told my sister. Bodoh gila. HAHA.

I'll forever remember SK. Seri Negeri

Najmin Roslan

1 Teratai, 2 Teratai, 3 Teratai, 4 Teratai, 5 Teratai and 6 Teratai. :D

First semester DONE!

Come to think of it. I did have fun. I remember the first thing I thought when I found out that I was placed in UiTM Arau, I was pretty sad. I will be like far away from my AFS friend. I will be left out and its gonna hard to see them again. I can't volunteer like the rest. No YES Picnic or Camps. But if you think about it, life is soo full of good things even if you hated it.

The past 4 month in college taught me good things. I was very lucky to have such a fun roomates. They are soo crazy in a way I can't explain. I will remember the time all three of us spent the entire night taking pictures with my webcam and talked about life and 'feeling' , making not so important poster and hang it to the wall and stuff. We are crazy and soo much more. You guys are like the two people that I shall miss the most next semester.

Thanks Shiera Mohamed and Nur Azri Liyana <3

Liyana, Najmin and Shiera

4018/Dahlia

Our poster. hahahahaha. :D

And my classmate, they are the best. I really glad that I have them to help me go through all my 6 semester. Most of them know the real me already. The real NAJMIN ROSLAN. sound mysterious right? haha. no laa. the real me is very childish and not matured at all, if you care to know and thank god they appeared to be very caring and sister-like sometimes. I need those stuff. haha. well, thats the down of being the youngest. :D I realized now we don't actually have a picture of all of us. Now I can't post pictures. Dang it! What a waste.

Me in Arau is like finding new people and discover new places. I won't know in Arau, I can eat soo much PizzaHut that I don't think I ever can have another Pizza anymore. I felt bad for the pizza delivery guy. I wonder how many trip he did to UiTM? hurm? I'm guessing a lot?? and I can stay up late studying. yes. I remember SPM, i hated study like a lot. My dad also didn't happy about it but here, its different. Maybe because of the pressure. I guess this is how you supposed to feel if you lived in asrama penuh. I never so I never know. hehh. is that acceptable? no? who cares. I still hate studying :b

Now that I'm home. I'm thinking of so many things.

I need to start running, dancing and stuff like that.

I NEED TO MOVEEE!

Well, I guess that's it. Gonna make my mom and dad feel like they have enough of me while I'm home. Till we meet again. :D

My Dancing Family :DD

A photo that explain all! :D

I just love them <3

Relationship

GOOD THINGS COME TO

 THOSE WHO WAIT

.................................

A Year Anniversary :D

A year has passed.

.............................

It has been a year since i took a plane from Malaysia to the other side of the world.

I know its not a big deal to you.

but I have a family there.

Val, Paul, Brandon, Theresa, Amy, Papa Frank, Aunt Mel, Alyssa, Madison, Evan, Tyler, Jayden,

Friends,

Nikki Calumpang, Asha, Kennedy, Kate, Taylor, Kelli, Sam, My drama peeps, choir peeps,

A LOT

I remember my first day in Ohio. I arrived in a very small plane to a town called Toledo. I walked anxiously to the arrival and then saw a group of people holding up my name on a cardboard and balloons and there i saw my mom and she introduced herself.

I AM VAL AND I AM YOUR MOM :D

I was speechless, i never thought i would get such a greeting. My local coordinator, Nacema was there too and so did 3 exchange students from Indonesia, Philippines and Thailand.

I was stunned and tears fall down within seconds.

I remember holding the balloon and it flew to the atmosphere because it was too windy and COLD. I smiled :)

then, i jumped into my mom's red jeep and we had a little talk before we reached home, and it was awkward because it was the first time i met her and i don't even know her but she makes it very comfortable.

We went to Walmart to buy a drawer for me and she bought for me a pillow and she asked me, what is my favorite color? and i said PURPLE. and she took the purple pillow and gave it to me. :DD

First picture in Ohio:)

We went back to the car and we called Paul. I talk to him and he said, we will meet soon. and i was like oookaaay. haha. still a bit awkward.

So, i went home and slept ( JET LAG )

then i woke upp, Paul was there and i hugged him and i still remember he told me that i smell nice (HAHA) and he told me that he going to call me Naji because he can't say my name. :D

So, right now, i'm imagining what are they doing right now and i know they would be under a blanket, Paul would get the woods for the fireplace and they would watch movies and Paul would happily go out and snow blow the roads and they would wear socks in the house (i didn't wear sock the first day and Val was like 'are kidding me?' haha. :D and hot guy would slipped his car into the drain in front of our house ( wait, i'm not going to be there! nooo!) haha. and they would have 6cm of snow and they would just stay at home because its too dangerous to go out, and hot chocolate. emmm.

I MISS THE SNOW AND MORE IMPORTANTLY I MISS THE THINGS THAT I DID WITH PAUL AND VAL DURING WINTER :D

person that thankful for everything,

Najmin Roslan :D

Am i on a right track?

Hey everybody.

Just read an article in the internet about the woman responsibility in Islam

and was thinking....

They said that if a girl don't wear hijab. Every single string of hair means thousand of years in hell. and that make me think harder, my heart beat like crazy.

I am afraid.

InsyaAllah. In God willing. i will one day wear hijab. :D

and i mean it.

MY NEW NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR 2012

is to be a good muslim. pray every single day. sedekah a smile everyday.

because i really do love Islam and strongly believe in Allah S.W.T and His power :'D