Heart wants what it wants

I am in no mood to play around,

I am 24. I know I have a hard time finding love for myself. I don't know what I did in the past but it sure is painful now the world that I am living. Takpe Najmin. Kesedihan tu penghapus dosa. You'll be stronger than before. InsyaAllah. You will find your happiness. Just believe in God's plan.

Loving someone is very painful. Thats why I stay away from it the first place. But I can't help myself from loving someone so deeply. I need to stop doing that before I have no more heart to begin with. Haha. 

You need to make sure you fall for the right person after this okay najmin? Okay la ni hang lex luu abis degreeee dah kan? Kemonnn!

Muhammad Nuh B Muhammad Khir

11 March 2017

My nephew was born. I still remember that day where I was so excited that my sister safely delivered the little bundle of joy name Muhammad Nuh. But he was in Shah Alam and I am all the way in Kedah.

I was so happy. I love that my family is growing big and I am a makcik now. I don't mind that. First a makcik, next a mother. I am 24 for goodness sake. I have woman hormones. HAHAHA  kbye

Back to Nuh, I first laid eyes on him when my sister came back to Kedah for her confinement. Little Nuh is so little. He was literally less than 10 days old. Then I spend my time with him all thru Najla's confinement and I love him. I even love him before he enters the world. p/s : mothers usually feel that way. Not aunties but oh well I just so hopelessly sentimental that way.

Now its 23 July, 2017. I am on the night before my last degree finals. Will take about that in my next post and he is basically almost 4 months now. How adorable. He right now resemble a lot like my late grandmother on my mother's side.

He is literally a joy to my small family. I can't wait for him to grow up and read this post and see how much I love him even before he was born. Haih anak aku nanti macamana laa sayangnya. Oh well, lambat lagi kan nak kahwin. Hmmm.

Love,
Your hormonal Cumin,