should i or should i not ?

hurmmm..
have u ever in a situation where u hving second thought
or should i say, second feeling..
hv ever have someone mke u feel soo happy.
n the next day u feel soo not happy..
just like a friend who u hv that was soo fun to be friend with..
n the next day. u feel soo different
it just an example okay !
haha..i know..that how life ought to be..

hving relationship????
or having great result??
will u or will u not focus if u in a relationship??
u will nvr figure it out..

haha..im trying to give question as i move along to the story..
ehurrm (clear throat)
there this guy..should i give a nickname..
ermmm...SO..no one will know except for my friend (syuhadaaa)
this SO becoming my friend on the social website..
turn up he is from my school..
eventually we start smsing..
haha..n i turn up goood, i think..
cuz for a second there i thought im in love again..
it a big thing cuz i hve a hard time falling in love.
after my first ever broken heart..
eventhough we never ever date..
n eventually SO ask for my love...
haha..i freak out for a second there n then realise that i dont want to be a couple..
i just want to be 'just me'...
n its hard cuz SO really think i like him..
bcuz of 'the till midnight smsing...'
n i do like him for a second...
then im not....i know...
im soo bad...i shouldnt do that..
do i still have feeling to my first ever broken heart person??
that i cnt accept anybody else accept him...im terrified..

i cant hurt his feeling as because i would just be like the one who broke my heart..
or l will just say it nicely..
i can do this!!!

how bout the =
NO COUPLE TILL SPM!!
haha..i keeping the promise..
wish me luck..:p