Lost

Lost in confusion,

Confusion of my very one thought.

Maybe it wasn't a good decision,

But I shall give it a good fought.

My life, my body, my mind, my heart.

Must be in sync,

To focus on one thing and one thing only,

To my own recovery,

And self discovery.

It's dangerous,

How I let my heart to be vulnerable,

Please don't play with my heart,

It has enough stitches,

That could last a lifetime.

I am lost,

Lost in my own thoughts.

Maybe I can't read the signal,

I am being delusional.

I shall find the path again,

and to be on track,

The track where it all begin.

-najminroslan-

Updated version of my life

Time flies, looking back at previous heartbreak. I wasn't that bad now when I think about it.

Yes it was hard at first,

The fact that I will literally cried at the sound of his name, But now, shockingly not anymore. The pain was gone and my life has been all about moving on.

Come to think about it,

I am stronger than before,

I am more confident and I excel in my studies. How many people you can tell that out of the the whole batch, only two person who is in the dean list and you are one of it.

To get a dean for applied chemistry,

Thats an achievement for me and I can tell that Allah tengah pujuk me and I am very much grateful for everything that He ever gave to me.

As for now, I am happy to be on my own. I read my old post and how I was single for 3 years. If I can handle that, why can't now?

Now I really want to focus on my studies and to make my parents proud.

Jodoh tu rahsia Allah and I am a women, I love surprises. Especially if its from Allah swt. 

Najmin, whoever you may turn up to be in the future. Remember your roots and your believe. Some minor heartbreak only  will slow you down. Get back on that race and just keep walking forward.

Love you dear self. Remember that.