Second time the charm

I used to write a tweet and now its pinned. It said "My heart so sincere its hurts"

I guess people keep wondering what does that means? I know exactly why I said it. After my last breakup, it has occur to me that I would never trust a guy again and little did I know I was fallen again. This time to a guy that never actually the nicest guy I've met. He always so annoyed at me, always pointing at my mistake and so on. But I know that just the way he is. He melawak like that. He can be sweet too. If you ended up knowing me. You would know I don't like guys that always puji me and stuff. I like his attitude. His ways. I think I can get by that annoying attitude and I can't seem to get him out of my mind. I met him at 24 during my last year of degree through my aunt. He was quite a handful and had been a reason that I smile for quite some times.

2 years later, after his game of disappearing and then resurface again and again. I found out that he is getting married. Am I sad? I am devastated. Am I happy for him? Of course. I know he is the kind of guy that think about his action through and through and he definitely been thinking about it. Do I know about the girl? Yes. He told me before about this girl that his parents want him to know.

I think this is a thing I should write about because I feel it my heart that I really care about this guy and I am a very hard person to feel this way. Two guys that I had loved is now married. I guess my jodoh is really hard then. But I do believe in true love. I know somewhere out there, there's a guy that can love me like I love him. This time he stick around and won't marry someone else. I hope.

Its my way of saying goodbye. It was nice knowing you. AK

Letting go,
Najmin