should i or should i not ?

hurmmm..
have u ever in a situation where u hving second thought
or should i say, second feeling..
hv ever have someone mke u feel soo happy.
n the next day u feel soo not happy..
just like a friend who u hv that was soo fun to be friend with..
n the next day. u feel soo different
it just an example okay !
haha..i know..that how life ought to be..

hving relationship????
or having great result??
will u or will u not focus if u in a relationship??
u will nvr figure it out..

haha..im trying to give question as i move along to the story..
ehurrm (clear throat)
there this guy..should i give a nickname..
ermmm...SO..no one will know except for my friend (syuhadaaa)
this SO becoming my friend on the social website..
turn up he is from my school..
eventually we start smsing..
haha..n i turn up goood, i think..
cuz for a second there i thought im in love again..
it a big thing cuz i hve a hard time falling in love.
after my first ever broken heart..
eventhough we never ever date..
n eventually SO ask for my love...
haha..i freak out for a second there n then realise that i dont want to be a couple..
i just want to be 'just me'...
n its hard cuz SO really think i like him..
bcuz of 'the till midnight smsing...'
n i do like him for a second...
then im not....i know...
im soo bad...i shouldnt do that..
do i still have feeling to my first ever broken heart person??
that i cnt accept anybody else accept him...im terrified..

i cant hurt his feeling as because i would just be like the one who broke my heart..
or l will just say it nicely..
i can do this!!!

how bout the =
NO COUPLE TILL SPM!!
haha..i keeping the promise..
wish me luck..:p

scandal ? :))

scandal3x
cool huh??
thats what me n my friend loove bout..
not that we have a scandal..
its about other people scandal that makes its all fun..:))
with the right knowledge and the right sources,,
we can find scandal preety easy...
several example that happen in my school lately..

the teachers also interested in knowing scandal
~ ckgu roxy n freakio~

and some of the student elsewell...
~ mel n kiki lala~
~the double F~
~syu n LZF n flirt ~ haha..sorry :))

and other that not yet been discovered,,
but we will find them..
keep an eagle's eye too us..haha..

8)) tada!!

how should i lie ?

this year is all gone from fun to disaster..
i woul consider myself being hate by SSS.he just a bomb waiting to explode..
wait a minute, im a bomb waiting to explode..
if he tries to make fun of me again..
im going to smack his face n it will not look like his face..
got it? :((
n teacher was very mad at him n he hav to sign the borang slh laku..
then, i feel terriblely bad..i dont want him to get in trouble..
well the borang settle it..:))
that night i have tuition class with him n he said something in chinese
it was like ....aiman....pecat.....
i noe what he said..
it will probably mean like
me n aiman want sir to pecat her as pengerusi right now..
i said that because aiman was mad at me also the same day..
i was exploding on the inside!!!

The next day,

Aiman was still mad and so did SSS..
but like i care..he wouldnt touch me or anything
cuz im not as weak as he would think..you pig!!
soo..i was mad also but the other night..
soo i told syuhada bout the pecat thing n she said aiman refuse to do that..
how could i accuse aiman..she my friend!!
n talking bout aiman..she planning on going out with this boy..
i think she losing her mind..ish3 aq nie..haha
n she told her parent well at least her mom that she hav classes..
n then her mom called me and ask me where she is??
i was terrified to death..i can feel my heart beating as fast as F1 car
n she said 'if there any class going on at school??'
n i said 'no.(still terrified)..i dont think s0'
then..there were a slight pause..
she she said ' nvm..thankyou'
n then i hung up..n after that i feel terrible..
i should hv lied but i cant cuz im not good at it..
soo..i texted her mom n said ' maybe she at poetry class'
then i called aiman n told her evrything..
i know she did a bad thing cuz she lied..
but im trying to save her butt this time!!ergghh..idiot me..
that all laa..hope shell be allright..

day by day passed by..
aq nk g cycling n g released tension kat pantai..
with shahida n shafikah.,,haha..
will always have fun..

tada :))

what a year it has been

hey guys,

have u ever thought that a girl like me would grow up. haha.. in fact. i just did..im nearly 7 teen..it really weird when i read my previous post n thinking how much had i grown this year..ermm..my life..obviously i will have my real big exam this year..it is SPM..the most thrilling n exciting exam of the year!!if i mess this i mess up my life..haha..i wont have my dream job n end up swinging my legs..haha..its mean noo job..haha..but to think bout it..it just a matter of time n i have soo much experience..i will miss school next year n i wont doubt it..i gonna miss doing note (like i do now) haha..n of course hanging out with my friend..im trying to enjoy the present know..as i know we all will go our separate ways..n by that time i will definite looking forward for the reunion cuz i had spend my entire high school life with all of them n i know im gonna miss them..

woahh..im totally had become serious since my last post..haha..but i still have a lits of fun..i just done with the GEOPARK FAIR..its an international event n we dance there..what a time i had with the teknik boys n the tungku putra girls n of course my school girls..we did a hard routine that can make ur butt feel numb..haha..but i enjoyed it..my school life is the same n my love life is hopeless..haha..thats it i guess..till next year..hahaha...

10 A+ for SPM!!
i cant do it
like my dad always say
'stop worrying n start studying'
haha,, :))