Najmin age 26

Alhamdulillah, I am at the age of 26. berhabuk this blog guys but it never failed to bring me back to my roots and how my story was being told by my young self. Whenever I'm writing again, I felt like my old self. The geeky Najmin who loves to write. Gone but never forgotten. I forgot how it felt like to write again.

So basically a complete recap of my life since I last wrote a blog. I'm not sure if I jotted this down before but I am currently in a rented room of a two storey house with a single bed in Puchong surviving this life alone. Yet again alone. and you know what. The transition that I did was not easy but it has been 7 months since I move in here. I had learn to adapt and just go with the flow. Here have taught me independence and able to do things on my own which I hated at first, balling my eyes wanted to go home a couple of month but here I am feeling like a totally independent woman.

I think I have my parents to thank, they never doubted me when I said I wanted to move, they know I can do it. I know I can do it but I know I had been a total princess before with them so maybe thats why I had not been able to accept the fact that I might not be able to have their help in my life again and its sucks.

But God is great, Allah is great. I am at a point where I can say that I have it all figured out. I bought my first car on May on my birthday. Both me and the roadtax of the car share the same date. haha. I am paying for my ptptn now. ughh I know. I have medical insurance, I have savings. I think I am at a point that I wanted to be in my life. Yes I haven't met a guy yet. I am not married yet but I am happy that I am able to think about myself and what I need as a person before I think about someone elses and you know what. I am delighted.

Now,  I am actually ready. I want to get married and have kids. This is my silent battle. People keep asking me when I am ready and are you not seeing anyone and why there isnt a guy that wanted you. I been asking myself the same thing. I never told anyone but I really am sooo ready to get married and have children. I have tasted the life of being a loner and I didnt like it. I want company so bad but I know Allah have great plans for me and I am a true believer of His choice and plans and who am I to questions His plan.

So I'll just wait and see. Alright that is it.

Talk to you later God knows when.