Its have been a while

Like u guys know. my last blog tell you that im going to America!

and im still going. HAHA! just did my visa the other day. meet the others that i really miss,

haha, done my visa now i have to do some injection something. haha.

As u all know..im seventeen and i got my SPM.

currently i'm sitting for my SPM. done all 9.

got 1 more left which is EST! after this, im not a school girl anymore, weird.

i dont know what my result are gonna be. just have to leave it to god,

only He knows.

that is all. i dont know what to updated u guys anymore. hope u guys have a great holidays,

and for me this EST paper on 15th December is the last day for me to see my friend :)

sooo excited. then we planned to go to KL as Kak Long is going to engage. best laa kak long!

bye :)

I'm TOP 50 baby! America..here i come!

Hey guy..remember when i went for the AFS second interview..
guess what??i got it..crazyyy right???
i'm on the freaking list..It was awesome..
i even have to complete the form that they given. have to do medical checkup and so on.
It was tiring also. I did a TB test which have to wait for 3 days for the result. then only i got to send the form..:)
But doing all that is an experience i will never forget. I just cant believe i'm going to America..
My friend also have some problem while doing it. Some even lost the cheque. Some don't have the immunization record..
Luckily, i don't have the problem. I even ask me school to do the supporting letter on the last day of school!!
hahaha..thankfully everything went as plan and i submitted the form on time. but now..the problem is the online application..
All fine but it come out to the visa part. It ask us to fil in the passport thingy and i dont have that. without it, i cant submit, shit. Now i have to do my passport first. and it even raya now. ouh..btw, SELAMAT HARI RAYA. It have been a month since we fasting. now in 3 days, its raya. I can't wait!! I got lots of baju raya. and coming to hometown never feel better that this. i just cant wait! but first, i got trial to do. After the raya holiday, i got addmath paper and physic. woaah! 2 freaking paper that i afraid of. nvrmind. i;ll get ready but as for now. I'm in RAYA mode..haha..and America mode!!

I'm going there bb,
I'm going to show them what Najmin have to offer :)

It trial..

YES Selection Camp :)

Its was awesome!!i met new friends..and we stay in touch after that..

there were like 74 of us. they said that they would only pick 45-50 people only..

i'm sure hope i will be chosen though. the interview when on according to alphabet..

luckily i'm N..haha,.so my interview is on the second day..

they asked me question and i can answer it..it just the matter of good or not..

i'm scare!!

here some of the question they throw on me:

tell u what unique about u?

have ur mom involve in AFS?

what community service had u done?

what are the current issues that u know?

what do you think about hugging?

what if the food is non-halal?

i manage to answer it all..but a little gagap sometimes which is normal..

ANNIE YAP even compliment me on my dimples..haha..geez..thanks..

here is some photos of me and my new friends

me with aisyah and fairuz :)

This guys are crazy :)

This is Farhan. he taught us sign language :)

Goh Yie Jee :)

Jiong Da.,.I miss u :)

Irin Arina :)

Sanjiv :)

Cherylyn :)

Emylya, Cherylyn, i forgot and Janice :)

Group 2 :)

Prom pictures!

dinner table..im wearing kebaya!:D

I'm being obviously hungry..haha..(next to me is yati)

haha..damn funny! :D

Posing after the event..soo much fun!(I'm with Faris)

In the way of obtaining world peace. I just can't wait. If i ever have the chance to go to America, it will be icing on the cake. The kind of holiday i would drag myself do after the long and tiring SPM exam. i just found out that YES is establish after the 11 September tragedy to build bridges of international understanding between people of America and the people in countries with significant muslim population. It also the way to show to people that we are NOT terrorist. haha. People might say that'

At school today on 28/7/2010....

I just find out that my dad has been promoted. Thats a good new but it still sad bcuz i hear it not from my dad, my teacher told me. i am soo happy for my dad. he deserve it. and i also have my name called on the assembly. that because i got 6th place on sajak competition..haha,.soo terkejut. i got this broken file which is very disturbing to me.. aahhh geram..haha.. and a mechanical pencil..cool..

at 30/7/2010

its prom night.....i went there actually with my mom. and then she left me alone, fortunately i have my friend around. and i was the only one with the kebaya,. all people wear this dresses and gown but i went traditional which am soo proud of. haha..i will upload the picture as for now my friend have it bcuz my phone was out of battery that day which not allow me to take tons of picture of myself.,haha..its very awkward to see my ex there.. haha. i actually miss him. he is very nice person and very stylish too. i was soo stupid but we have move on to our separate ways which i think is much more better. the prom is actually a little boring as it all involve with the committee soo the none committee just have to sit around and enjoy the show and doing nothing. which is pretty much what i do. haha. but all and all, i have a blast with my fellow friend as it is the last year of me to my beautiful and amazing school. MAHSURI,. you will forever be remember trough 7th generation as the legend says,,,haha..

Omigod..One step ahead on going to America!

i just check the shortlisted and i'm one of it.

damn crazy.

im soo excited..

just receive the letter today..

Date : 7th & 8th August 2010

Venue : Quality Hotel, Shah Alam

Have to read up facts and figures, history and geography of Malaysia and America..

Oh noo..Dont feel like reading..haha..

thats all..

will keep you update..

What u see is what u get daddy..:(

i just had a bad week!

Its was honestly terrible. i got on this huge fight with my dad and didnt turn out very good :(

It all started when i was asking my dad about the chemistry and physic tuition class..

Its was soo random and i didn't mean anything harm..then it was all started to happen..

He started to lecture me with his word ( mmg pedih! :( )

He told me that i just want this classes because i was soo lazy to study by myself..

I just want to say dad.......i want to improve in the way u want me to be..is that wrong to you??

Its just very hard for me to keep up to your standard daddy..i'm just a normal girl..can u just accept that??

It may be hard for u but don't u think it will be hard for me too???

It really hurt when u told maksu n paksu that u have stop having faith to me..

what???????????? it was DAMN sad ok..

How would u said such thing and i know u mean it..it was deep and it will haunt me 4ever..

Next..its also hurt when you say that my 7A for my PMR was just luck..what do u mean?

I worked my ass out for that 7A and i thought u would be proud of me. oh! how im wrong..

I didn't even got anything for that matter but i just keep on silent cuz i thought maybe u are proud of me..:(

You just don't trust me.. i'm your daughter..

What u say is making me lose all my confident..and my spirit to keep on trying..

and now! u don't even want to speak to me??ur very own daughter??

that sacrifise all her teenage life what his dad to be proud of her..to make her dad likes her..

i dont even allowed to take licence,,

"A GIRL NEED A LOVE FROM HER FATHER"
i alway thought u love me..but its soo hurt that even a thing can't take the feeling away..

i will try daddy..i will try my best..

eventhough i dont got ur trust anymore...

im not giving up,,cuz u never thought me to give up..

giving up is for loser......im not a loser..

I will try, For you

ROSLAN MUSTAFFA

AFS experience..

It have been a week since i went to the interview..

it was awesome.

what i really want to gain is experience.

the first thing i remember is that the night before it was crucial..

i was terrified as it is.

i even wrote the thing that i plan to talk in the interview..haha..

the interview : 22 June 2010

2.00-5.00 pm

I first arrived there with my mom..

i sit there doing nothing and was holding my certificate along.

i saw a lot of people that i think is very very educated.

theres people coming from MRSM , Science school.

they are all very high compared to a normal school student like me..

i was very humble and alone because i'm the only one from Langkawi..

then, they started to play games..and we got along pretty fine actually.

and the games were fun too..i have soo much fun..

then, when its time..they called my name...

i remembered myself jumping and fixing my scarf before i enter...

it was heart-stomping moment....i was afraid...

then i start knocking on the door..i saw three interviewer and they were all looking at me..

i get in and give my best smile..:D

then they ask me question as follow :

interviewer

najmin

hi..

hi, nice to meet u..

ermm..najmin, what do you know about the history of AFS?

*GULP* i know that AFS is all about sharing and respecting people..i also know that AFS started after the 9/11 accident and they tried to close the barrier between the muslim community

(i know this bcuz i watch the FIELD TRIP USA):D

hurm..ok..why we should pick you?

you should pick me because as the traditional dancer, i have the talent and the determination to be one of the exchange student.

what do you know about the culture of other races?

do you know that every sregion in Malaysia have it own traditional dance? like in Kedah, we have Jerai, Layang Mas and Ayam Didik..i also know the indian dance which is the Barathanatyam and the chinese which is the Lion dance. through food, the indian have the Murukku and the chinese have the Mooncake..

what do you know about the mooncake festival?

*double gulp* i know on that day they ate a lot of mooncake..

(ouch ! mess up pretty bad here!)

are you open-minded?

yes. i think..because i come from a very supporting family. they really open minded about anything. so yeah.. i am open minded..

(she look clueless after listening to me..oh no!)

najmin..what if your host family have a dog? what will you do as a muslim?

i just have to tell them that i can't touch the dog. i can only touch the dog if we both dry.

what if they don't understand?

i just have to tell them and if they do nothing about the matter. i just have to stay away from the dog.( laughing)

then, what if your host family eats pork, then wash the utensil then cook meal for u??

i would just have to explain to them on the beginning about my religion. i respect my religion and i hope they will too. if they don't understand, i just have to find other food to eat..if there are none.."DARURAT"

what if your host family when to church and ask you to follow?

it would be okay if i just follow, but if they ask me to sing or anything. i won't do it.

ermm..do you want to see picture..

(i showed them my dad picture)

my dad is an English teacher in SMT Langkawi

(them my mom studio)

my mom have a lot of traditional costume that can be rent..

(and all my dancing picture)

that all..

then, i went back to the waiting room and enjoys more games..

it a wonderful experience..

it will be better if i get selected..

i always one to be an exchange student...i will keep praying..,

dont know if i get in..:D

its three days until my AFS interview..

It have been 2 week since the start of my school holidays.

i definitely have a blast :)

right now im going to focuz bout my interview.

what are my preparation??

i prepared myself with a long speech..

i can write but im just too afraid if i cant speak as well as im writing..

the word just dont come out in my head..

im also try by practicing my speech infront my sister, friends (they are very helpful ) and even my webcam..haha..

im just very afraid..i will tell u guys how it went..

its my first ever interview and it scares the crap out of me...

' hope i can be a person that can create a peaceful bond between my countries and other countries with different cultural and languages'

how i want it soo bad..

*sigh*

keep praying......

im 17..can i get my driving license now?haha..

wuhhoo..
its the best birthday ever,,
i got tons of wishes that i appreciate soo much..
n my mak long gave me a watch fir my birthday...
splendid - its casio,,n its purple n its all i ever wanted..haha
n my mom..she gave me a new phone..its LG KM555e..with wifi,,
im so grateful..now what im going to do is to A's my exam.,.haha
my dad gave me a RM5o note,,i gave it to my mom cuz she buy me a new phone..haha
n my bestfwen show up on my birthday n so did SO..
he gave me a teddy bear kowt..great..haha..chomel..
n fildza gave me a stuffed monkey which is also cute..
he take it from the sheraton hotel for free cuz his dad work there..

its good to be seventeen..
cuz i can have my driving license..haha
but my mum n dad insist me on getting it after my SPM..
gosh,,its like monthhss from now..
i cant bare it..haha..but my mom had taught me a little about cars..
haha..i just cant wait..im getting olderrrrr...

it my mid year exam..
gosh..so harddd..
it easy on the first day cuz its only got bahasa..
then on the second day it is sejarah (history!!)
its sooo harddd...it think ill fail..
n the have bio n chemistry n physic n bla bla bla..
my mind right now is soo blank..fuckk..
butim confident i can get full A on my SPM..
u just wait n see...

that all..
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY NAJMIN...:))
haha..geez,,.thanks myself..
tata :))

should i or should i not ?

hurmmm..
have u ever in a situation where u hving second thought
or should i say, second feeling..
hv ever have someone mke u feel soo happy.
n the next day u feel soo not happy..
just like a friend who u hv that was soo fun to be friend with..
n the next day. u feel soo different
it just an example okay !
haha..i know..that how life ought to be..

hving relationship????
or having great result??
will u or will u not focus if u in a relationship??
u will nvr figure it out..

haha..im trying to give question as i move along to the story..
ehurrm (clear throat)
there this guy..should i give a nickname..
ermmm...SO..no one will know except for my friend (syuhadaaa)
this SO becoming my friend on the social website..
turn up he is from my school..
eventually we start smsing..
haha..n i turn up goood, i think..
cuz for a second there i thought im in love again..
it a big thing cuz i hve a hard time falling in love.
after my first ever broken heart..
eventhough we never ever date..
n eventually SO ask for my love...
haha..i freak out for a second there n then realise that i dont want to be a couple..
i just want to be 'just me'...
n its hard cuz SO really think i like him..
bcuz of 'the till midnight smsing...'
n i do like him for a second...
then im not....i know...
im soo bad...i shouldnt do that..
do i still have feeling to my first ever broken heart person??
that i cnt accept anybody else accept him...im terrified..

i cant hurt his feeling as because i would just be like the one who broke my heart..
or l will just say it nicely..
i can do this!!!

how bout the =
NO COUPLE TILL SPM!!
haha..i keeping the promise..
wish me luck..:p

scandal ? :))

scandal3x
cool huh??
thats what me n my friend loove bout..
not that we have a scandal..
its about other people scandal that makes its all fun..:))
with the right knowledge and the right sources,,
we can find scandal preety easy...
several example that happen in my school lately..

the teachers also interested in knowing scandal
~ ckgu roxy n freakio~

and some of the student elsewell...
~ mel n kiki lala~
~the double F~
~syu n LZF n flirt ~ haha..sorry :))

and other that not yet been discovered,,
but we will find them..
keep an eagle's eye too us..haha..

8)) tada!!

how should i lie ?

this year is all gone from fun to disaster..
i woul consider myself being hate by SSS.he just a bomb waiting to explode..
wait a minute, im a bomb waiting to explode..
if he tries to make fun of me again..
im going to smack his face n it will not look like his face..
got it? :((
n teacher was very mad at him n he hav to sign the borang slh laku..
then, i feel terriblely bad..i dont want him to get in trouble..
well the borang settle it..:))
that night i have tuition class with him n he said something in chinese
it was like ....aiman....pecat.....
i noe what he said..
it will probably mean like
me n aiman want sir to pecat her as pengerusi right now..
i said that because aiman was mad at me also the same day..
i was exploding on the inside!!!

The next day,

Aiman was still mad and so did SSS..
but like i care..he wouldnt touch me or anything
cuz im not as weak as he would think..you pig!!
soo..i was mad also but the other night..
soo i told syuhada bout the pecat thing n she said aiman refuse to do that..
how could i accuse aiman..she my friend!!
n talking bout aiman..she planning on going out with this boy..
i think she losing her mind..ish3 aq nie..haha
n she told her parent well at least her mom that she hav classes..
n then her mom called me and ask me where she is??
i was terrified to death..i can feel my heart beating as fast as F1 car
n she said 'if there any class going on at school??'
n i said 'no.(still terrified)..i dont think s0'
then..there were a slight pause..
she she said ' nvm..thankyou'
n then i hung up..n after that i feel terrible..
i should hv lied but i cant cuz im not good at it..
soo..i texted her mom n said ' maybe she at poetry class'
then i called aiman n told her evrything..
i know she did a bad thing cuz she lied..
but im trying to save her butt this time!!ergghh..idiot me..
that all laa..hope shell be allright..

day by day passed by..
aq nk g cycling n g released tension kat pantai..
with shahida n shafikah.,,haha..
will always have fun..

tada :))

what a year it has been

hey guys,

have u ever thought that a girl like me would grow up. haha.. in fact. i just did..im nearly 7 teen..it really weird when i read my previous post n thinking how much had i grown this year..ermm..my life..obviously i will have my real big exam this year..it is SPM..the most thrilling n exciting exam of the year!!if i mess this i mess up my life..haha..i wont have my dream job n end up swinging my legs..haha..its mean noo job..haha..but to think bout it..it just a matter of time n i have soo much experience..i will miss school next year n i wont doubt it..i gonna miss doing note (like i do now) haha..n of course hanging out with my friend..im trying to enjoy the present know..as i know we all will go our separate ways..n by that time i will definite looking forward for the reunion cuz i had spend my entire high school life with all of them n i know im gonna miss them..

woahh..im totally had become serious since my last post..haha..but i still have a lits of fun..i just done with the GEOPARK FAIR..its an international event n we dance there..what a time i had with the teknik boys n the tungku putra girls n of course my school girls..we did a hard routine that can make ur butt feel numb..haha..but i enjoyed it..my school life is the same n my love life is hopeless..haha..thats it i guess..till next year..hahaha...

10 A+ for SPM!!
i cant do it
like my dad always say
'stop worrying n start studying'
haha,, :))